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What´s in his head... I wonder

Ok I kinda feel for a little writing without caring about spelling xD. And it´s in english because I feel like it... PLUS I´ve been translating the entire day so it´s sort of catchy. 

You wanna know? Well I´ve been translating THE DUFF(Designated, Ugly, Fat, Friend) I thought that doing a little reading of the book would make me feel better about my situation... WHAT A MISTAKE

There´s no history like mine, but I guess I would like a little bit of this story to be mine.

A guy like Wesley the natural womanizer, turn into a nice guy for a girl that thinks the shit of her(ok in that we´re alike) but being chased?

I WAS NEVER CHASED IN MY ENTIRE LIFE.

Things like little notes, phone calls, answering TEXTS that´s not my life because no matter how hard I tried, my guy doesn´t seem to care about me. 

Seriously I´m not asking for a rose every single day but a text once in a while saying I miss you would be great. I keep telling myself that is just not OUR thing... but the truth is that is MY thing. 

I´d love he would do that for me, texting, calling, sending sings that HE´S ALIVE.

Am I asking too much? I really don´t know. I try to keep myself busy and don´t think about it, but the reality is another.

Let me unfold it to you. MY reality is that I think more that what I would like on him, I can´t eat most of the time because I HAVE A HOLE IN THE PIT OF MY STOMACH for all the nerves that I have... I´D BECOME NEEDY... This is horrible I´m starting to hate myself and I´m pretty sure that he doesn´t like me being needy either.

Is just that I would like to be apreciated a little bit, AND NEARLY DECEMBER. We start classes at FEBRUARY... 

Meaby seeing or trying to see the good side of it. We´re gonna be together the rest of the year, and we´re gonna see each other so much that we´re gonna end up being sick of each other...I HOPE in a good way. 

He´s totally my tipe isn´t he? 

I still have another 9 pages to translate... but I´m happy to do it. I might even read the whole book in english just for the fun of being reminded THAT MY LIFE WOULD NEVER BE LIKE ONE OF THOSE STORIES. No matter how hard I try to bring a little bit of romance to my love life... I have to face the fact that A´int gonna happen.

Althought I have some hope that he´ll surprise me... meaby I´m a fool. WHO KNOWS? Well I don´t. 

In other news I´ve been reading The Mortal Instruments 2: City of Ashes and let me say...

IT´S FREAKING AMAZING... OH JACE... OH SIMON... Oh Clary how much I´d wish I were you... I´d give Simon a chance... Jace is just... untouchable.

On the other hand I´ve been also using my twitter but it´s kind of dissapointed because noone is connected long enough to answer them :  (

I have to clean my room so I keep myself busy and not think of him. On the other hand I started with my writting again, poetry, stories, delusions of me. 

So basically that´s my life, reading, writting, and feeling sorry for myself... that´s lovely(that just to be clear was sarcasm)

This been quite entertaining... meaby I should do it more often.

Oh and also today, the whole day was windy and a little bit rainy... wich I LOVE... I honestly love rain... too bad I´m too fragil to even a kiss under the rain... but that doesn´t mean that I wouldn´t do it if the ocassion appears jaja